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by gabrielle » Sun Oct 27, 2019 10:27 pm
ugh that’s awful! i hope you can work something out!
okay okay here is a bit of a rant,, i’m sorry:
i’m going to my one of my best friends’ houses on halloween and we’re going to watch some scary movies. i jokingly said that we shouldn’t watch any horror films because i don’t have anybody to cuddle up with when i’m scared (some of my other friends are bringing their boyfriends). but then my friend suggested that i invite the guy i’m going to homecoming with and he said that he’d like to come hang for a bit on halloween too!
it’s a weird situation because we’ve sort of had a little crush on each other since we met 4 years ago, but he just got out of a long term relationship about two months ago. we sort of discussed the prospect of us being together since we both sort of always thought we’d end up dating at some point. to my dismay, he kind of said that he doesn’t want to date anyone else until we go off to college, which pretty much ruins any prospect of us ever getting together. i know he likes me, but i respect his feelings too much to make any solid moves. the thing is: he came to my house to surprise me with my favorite ice cream a few weeks ago, and he told me afterwards that he wished he had kissed me and that he felt safe when i hugged him. that was kind of a big move on his part. is that a valid excuse for me to edge forward?? i don’t know.
we don’t go to the same school and i’ve only briefly seen him twice in the past year. i think halloween and the homecoming dance (this saturday!) are going to play out interestingly. i hope since i’m going to see him in person for the first prolonged amount of time in a while, i can get a good judge of how he feels about me & the situation at hand. i’m really nervous, but also really excited.
also he’s really attractive, so if this ends up working out, i’ve kind of scored the jackpot hehe.
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but in the dark of night,
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