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gabrielle wrote: ↑

Sun Nov 24, 2019 9:18 pm

whose replies?? ;)

Oblivion wrote: ↑

Sun Nov 24, 2019 9:32 pm

ive had a terrible past couple days.

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Friday was actually fun,. Although my mom made me anxious, and I had to go to bed early for work Saturday but I fell asleep later than intended.

So I got home after work Saturday, took a two hour nap, and my online Xbox friend told me he liked me. Okay, that's fine. My anxiety skyrocketed, and I didn't think it could get worse but then my crush and I get into a big fight. He has jealousy issues, and didn't want me playing on the Xbox anymore with some kid only a year older than me. I am aware this is a red flag, so I made some things extremely clear, and that I wouldn't stand for being told who I could and could not be hanging out with and that if we were ever in an official relationship, that wouldn't last long of he was that protective. And then last night I got a sad 3-4 hours of sleep bc I took a nap yesterday and had ice cream and I was so anxious. Fun...

He felt so bad about the way he had responded to me, he couldn't get out of bed today and I'm pretty he got in trouble for not doing chores and school. I ignored him for some of the day bc I hadn't done anything wrong, but long story short, we both feel better now. I seriously didn't want to screw our friendship up, and I had a breakdown bc i hate fighting with any of my friends. All I wanted to hear him say was that he was sorry, and that he trusted me. But I didn't want to command him to say it, otherwise it wouldn't feel genuine. He apologized so many damn times to me, and we called and he sounded miserable. I've never heard him like that. He's always been the one who laughs and cracks a lame joke. That's how I knew he meant it.

I've lost my appetite. Even though we're over the argument now and have things resolved, I just feel sick, and I can't breathe due to my anxiety.

I'm gonna hug him next time I see him. It would be tmrw but that's canceled :( I'm just...relieved. So I have to wait one week. I don't feel bad, I didn't do anything wrong, I just feel bad that we had to fight, y'know? But these things happen, and I grew up being told to forgive bc God forgave us. We also talked about communication in church today and I was like woah this ain't a coincidence

Also goodnight bc I am exhausted and so damn cranky hahahaha

I'm not looking forward to Thanksgiving this year. I'm sick of socializing. I am just... Tired of everyone I know atm. I'm gonna tell me friends I'm taking this week to myself. I can play Skyrim, read my books and work on commissions. I'll be sad all week but will content.

Ugh, we're going to a family friends house for Thanksgiving and she always invites thirty to forty people. Like, I love her but the people don't know me or if they do they haven't seen me in years and wanna play catch up. It's draining, and I'm already so drained, especially after today.

Sorry, big wall of a vent/rant.

Z1M wrote: ↑

Tue Nov 26, 2019 7:28 pm

FUN F4CT; Y0U C4NT QU0T3 TH1S F0R 0TH3RS

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Z1M wrote: ↑

Tue Nov 26, 2019 7:28 pm

FUN F4CT; Y0U C4NT QU0T3 TH1S F0R 0TH3RS

W4NN4 GU3SS WHY?